Two of Jacob's friends, Jessica and Harry, called for him to walk to school this morning. Jacob asked if we could show Jessica around the house.

I thought it was a very grown-up thing to do and smiled as I heard him explain about the plan for our loft conversion and how it will be his new bedroom.

Talk of anything in the future stirs up very strange and deep emotions within me. It's weird to think of everyone else's life going on and not being a part of it all. I'm intrigued about where my children's futures will take them.

I saw Dr Mitra and another oncologist this morning and had the results from my full blood test and MRI scan. I'm delighted to say there are no tumours or problems showing on my brain at the moment and equally delighted that they found a brain!

Dr Mitra is such a nice oncologist. I remember so clearly his voice telling me I had an incurable disease and there was nothing more that he could do, yet I don't associate him with negative emotions at all.

If anything, it makes me feel strangely close to him as if we have some special bond.

Zipping about I'm feeling optimistic because my appointment at the hospital went so well even though I'm perfectly aware things can turn around very quickly.

Jacob needed new school shoes and I was stunned to discover that he is now the same shoe size as me, especially since I have quite big feet!

I'm really noticing the difference about the house with Tom being unable to help due to his broken vertebrae in his shoulder. It makes me value his input all the more. He is still unable to drive and is in a lot of pain.

I met up with my friend Clare, an old work colleague. We had years to catch up on and not enough time so we have arranged to meet again soon.

I've been zipping about in my car with the roof down. I can honestly say that after 20 years, I finally enjoy driving, particularly as my car's such a pose!

Because Jacob is having a sleepover, we decided to bring Fathers' Day forward a day. We kicked off with gifts for Tom, including some stabilisers for his bike!

Tom, Lesley's daughter Anna, Lewis and I went to our neighbour's for their daughter's ninth birthday party and farewell barbecue as they are going to Egypt for three years.

There was talk about the next party in three years time. Although I'm feeling pleasantly optimistic, three years sounds a long way off.

It was a lovely afternoon and evening. We met lots of people, including Tim who reads my diary on the train on his way to work every week (I promised him a mention). I was quite chuffed to have a fan there! I also met another couple who we got on particularly well with.

It seems a strange time to be making new friends.

Shock, horror, panic! We woke up and had nothing to do. Lewis and I made Tom breakfast in bed, although it was nearer lunch in bed by the time we got round to it. But we made Tom go back to bed to eat it.

In the afternoon, Lewis and I had a kick around with the football on the green but he told me I was rubbish.

Oh boy, I was misery today. I didn't sleep well and it was dark and rainy when I got up. Lewis wanted to wear his trainers to school and he couldn't find his school bag. I was a bit grumpy with him and ended up upsetting myself more because I don't like being grumpy with him.

I felt lethargic and tearful. On reflection I realised it is to do with the state of my hormones because of the cancer and associated treatment. I had been warned but I guess with the rollercoaster of life, it hasn't really had a chance to kick in.

I took Tom to the medical centre as he is still in so much pain with his injury. He is not sleeping well and has been referred to the fracture clinic.

His painkillers are knocking him out. We were working on our computers at one point, I looked up and he was asleep.

Jacob made me laugh too today as he told me they're doing sex education at school. He blushed and giggled when he told me about it. Not so long ago, Jacob thought that twins were the result of sleeping with more than one person!

Later, Lewis and I went out on our bikes to find Jacob and his friend who were playing at the park. Jacob becomes more independent by the minute and I think, given the circumstances, that perhaps that's not such a bad thing.

Tuesday was another good day. Jacob walked to school with his friend Harry and I drove Lewis. It's good seeing all those familiar faces in the morning - I find it comforting.

After collecting the boys from school, Jacob had a quick change and was straight out. I have had a chat with him about not getting into the habit of playing out every evening and explained that I would like him home at least one evening after school.

It's difficult because Lewis is too young to play out and doesn't like being left on his own.

Lewis and I also had a chat today, saying how much nicer things are when he behaves well. He told me he is going to be good for two weeks. I later discovered that Tom had told him if he is more helpful and organised he will buy him a new football kit.

My friend Julie and I finally managed to find some time to catch up with each other and went for an early evening walk.

Now that things are settling down I'm finding it easier to catch up with some of my friends, who I feel I have been neglecting in all the madness of living life to the full.

I went to work today and was in the office alone and became unnerved when another migraine hit. I called a girl in the adjacent youth centre to advise her I was feeling particularly unwell and I was alone.

It probably sounds dramatic but I don't want to be alone when I die and migraines make me feel vague and disorientated.

Luckily my dizziness passed following medication. I gathered myself and drove home.

I immediately fell into a very deep sleep. I knew I had to wake up because we had booked a night of pampering at Diamond Nails in Hove. I had chosen to make it a family night and invited my brother's girlfriend Jane, my sister Ann and mum Mavis, who have all been a tremendous support.

We had a lovely evening with complimentary manicures, chocolates and crisps. It was just what I needed and I am so grateful for everything that was done for us.

Copies of Sandra's charity CD are available at Rajah Indian restaurant in Windmill Parade, Southwick, and Girl Talk hairdresser's, Southwick Square, Southwick, Brighton.